Hello Tumblr world,
It has been a long time since I said hi. Things have been going pretty good for me. I got a job I can live off (i hope). I sell VW and BMW vehicles. My co-workers are great and very friendly. I got a 30gal fish tank that has 7 fish in it, 6 Tiger bards who are full of personality and a pleco named bob.
I have also been having halucinations again. not scary ones like i used to, but its still weird. I have either crossed into full blown schizophrenia (which might be the case, viewing my psychiatric history) or im a psychic. Either way the thing I have learned about living with severe mental illness is how you handle it. I used to panic when I heard my name being yelled in an empty room, now I dont. I still look like an idiot sometimes when I dont realize whats real and not. I left my office to walk up to a car to tell the woman inside that she cant be there only to realize when I was at the door that she was not real. Sometimes I am scared. I see children in my back seat sometimes, but I dont panic. Its easier when they dont speak or make sounds.
Overall things are good for me. I have a roof over my head, my lover in my bed, and food in my belly. I think im heading up in life.
the most terrifying thing in the world is someone willing to die for their beliefs
which brings me to my next point : bees